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Friday, December 23, 2011

An Involuntary Christmas: A Story

 

Based on characters from my novel, An Involuntary king: A Tale of Anglo Saxon England -- see left

“Damn!” Lawrence, King of Críslicland, muttered as he realized that in the thickly falling snow he had lost the party with whom he traveled. Shouting did not seem to help. No sound came to tell him where his men were, nor that they had heard and were coming to him. The fat snowflakes fell so fast he could barely see the trees not ten feet from him. It was Advent, the sennight before Christmas, and though his life hung in the balance if he could not find his way out of the blizzard, all he could think was, “I would like to spend it in Lawrencium with my wife.”

He rode on, his horse picking its way carefully in the ever-deepening snow. He could tell the animal, a descendant of his old horse, War-brother, was nervous for when he tried again to shout for help; it started and took a faltering step sideways. With difficulty he used the reins and his voice to calm it.

It was then he heard the voice, coming in wavering snatches as if from a boat tossed at sea. He halted the horse and listened. He leaned forward, cupping one ear with numbing fingers. There it came again, a woman’s voice, calling for help. He listened a moment more to discover from which direction the sound came. He urged his horse forward towards the source of the sound. Taking the chance, he called out that he was coming.

Lawrence picked his way as quickly as he dared through the snow to a stand of bare ash trees. The sound repeated, ever closer. At last he burst out of the trees to find himself in a clearing. There he saw a cloaked figure kneeling in the deep snow trying to cover a prone body with its own. The bent figure straightened. A woman called “Over here! Hurry!”

He slid off his horse, throwing the reins over a low branch at the edge of the woods. He was a very tall man, so his long legs allowed him to walk in the dense snow. He approached the woman, for the voice he heard with its lilting Celtic accent, was female. He wondered how long she had been there, kneeling by what looked like a man’s body, as there were no footprints near, just a slightly shallower valley in the accumulating snow.

“What is it? What has happened?” he called as he came to the spot. Under the hood of the mantle the woman wore he saw a dark face and very dark eyes full of distress.

“H-he fell from his horse, I think. It landed on him. His leg is broken. We must get inside or he will freeze to death.” She began to struggle to her feet. “I can’t lift him. Will you?”

She had no idea who he was. His rich clothing was coated in snow, like her own. But he barely noticed the omission of “my lord” or “your grace”. He was staring down into the blue tinged face of a bearded man. The man was still, his eyes closed. Lawrence was certain he was dead.

“Woman, this is a corpse,” he said.

“No, no, it is not! He has a heartbeat!” she insisted as she used his proffered arm to right herself.

Lawrence knelt by the man. Removing one glove, he put his fingers to a spot within the man’s cloak, to feel for a pulse. He was surprised to encounter chain mail as he tried to push his frozen fingers to bare skin. “My fingers are numb. I can’t feel his heartbeat.”

The woman started to protest but silenced when she saw his arms go under the man to lift him. She did her best to help him, mostly steadying him as he stood again with the limp but stiffening body in his arms.

“Where is your cottage?” he asked. He looked up as she pointed off to one side. “I will get my horse,” he explained as he turned back to where he had entered the clearing.

The woman had noticed his eyes when he looked to her for direction. They were a piercing blue, almost illuminated.

The horse with its burden stepped through the drifting snow as his master led it along behind the woman. The king could tell the woman struggled as if she was old, lame, or simply unsteady on her feet. She was short but corpulent. Either that or she had a dozen layers of clothing on against the cold.

He smelled the smoke of the fire pit before he saw her tiny cottage. At its crude plank door he tied his horse where it was under the overhang of the cottage’s thatch. The roof was so low that it was able to pull at the thatch by simply lifting its head. He assured himself with a glance that the thatch was full of dried grass and no noxious plants. He lifted the body from where he had draped it over his saddle. It seemed warmer now, as if the horse’s body heat had thawed it. He took the body in his arms and turned to follow the woman through the door into the cottage.

It was wonderfully warm inside. The single room was small. There was only one palette, and it was there the woman indicated he should place his burden. As soon as he had, she awkwardly got to her knees and started to strip the man of his snow-peppered clothing. “That chest there.” She flung an arm behind her and he followed her pointing finger, exposed in fingerless gloves, towards a wooden box against the far wall. “Get blankets,” she commanded.

He went to the box and raised the lid. There were indeed thick wool blankets. He enjoyed the warmth on his fingers as he pulled them out. Wool blankets in a warm room, like putting on thick gloves. He brought them to her. She began to tug at the dead man’s cloak. “Here, let me lift him for you.” She thanked him as first he lifted the body so she could pull the cloak out from under what he was beginning to suspect was actually a live man, and when he pulled off his own fur lined cloak, shook off the melting snow, and handed it to her to use as a further blanket. “Let me get my horse’s saddle off. I can bring in the saddle blanket and my saddle bags.”

When Lawrence came back into the cottage with the blanket and his other things, he could barely see the man under layers and layers of blankets and cloaks. On the floor nearby was a pile of chain mail. The woman was at the fire pit, melting snow in an iron pot suspended from a tripod over the flames. She put her hand to the small of her back as she got to her feet. His eyes widened. Now just in her dress and shawl he could see she was not fat. She was well gone with child.

“You certainly got his armor off quickly.” Lawrence asked, “Your man?”

“Dead,” she said dully.

He was confused. Then this was not her man, for she insisted the fellow he had carried here was living. “That’s not your man,” he responded as a statement of fact.

“No, I do not know who he is. I was outside watching the snow fall thicker and thicker when I heard a cry. His horse was gone, but I could see what was left of its prints. He was lying in the snow, moaning. The snow was pressed hard all around him as if a great weight was lifted from him. That’s why I think his horse fell on him. I did not know what to do. In my condition, I could not carry him. I could not even help him stand and hobble here.”

Lawrence helped her lower herself to her knees next to the man. “What can I do?” he asked.

She looked at him directly for the first time. Without his cloak, she saw how rich his chain mail and boots were. She raised her face to those blue eyes again. “Who are you?”

He grinned, “An angel from Heaven?”

A barely perceptible lift to the corners of her lips acknowledged the jest. “Are you.. a lord?”

He grinned more broadly. “Something like that.”

The man on the palette moaned, drawing her attention. “When that snow melts, put one of the stones from the side of the fire into it to warm the water. And hand me that rag.” When he had followed her instructions, she added, “Now wrap some of those other stones in more rags and bring them here.”

He came back and knelt at her side. She was wiping the man’s face and drying his dark curly hair and beard as best she could. He had divined the purpose of the rag covered hot stones and reached under the blankets to put them first at the man’s feet, then alongside him to his shoulders.

When he pressed the coverings back down to the man’s shoulders, he looked at the man’s face and drew in a sharp breath.

The woman looked at him. “You know him, my lord?”

A breath hissed between his teeth. “He is.. or was a mercenary. A Breton. Elerde of Leon.”

At the sound of his name the semi-conscious Breton opened heavy lidded dark eyes. He could barely make out the faces of the man and woman kneeling over him. He knew that voice however. An odd smile played on his countenance. “If it isn’t the hulking Saxon,” he essayed through cracked and bleeding lips. Then he started, looking sharply at the woman. “Josephina?!” he croaked.

Lawrence smiled thinly. “No, Elerde, it’s not the.. not my wife. It is the angel of mercy who found and saved you.”

The prone man’s sight was gradually clearing and he took in the dark hair and dark skin of the woman. “No, not the queen.”

The woman looked directly at Lawrence. “Your wife is the queen? Then you are the..” She stopped, her eyes wide. “The king?”

“Soon not to be,” he breathed. “In the summer I hand the crown to the King of Mercia.”

She stared at him disbelieving. “Why ever for? You are a good king!”

His smile was rueful. “I would like to think so, but part of being a good king is knowing when your kingdom needs protection you cannot give it.”

The woman was aware that raids by Northmen kept the king in the saddle almost constantly, trying to anticipate when and where the attacks would occur. Not content with harrying coastal villages, the dragon ships found the Wash and the Welland, giving them access to the towns upstream as far almost as Grantham. The same was true for the Humber. It was as a member of the fyrd trying to repel the raiders that her young husband had been killed.

She came out of her brief reverie to find the blue eyes fixed on her face. She realized he had asked her name.

“Tancogeistla,” (TAN ko GEEST la ) she replied. “And you are.. Lawrence.”

“King Lawrence,” came the thin voice from the head now propped on a folded cloak. Somewhere in his mind it registered that the woman’s name was a Celtic name. Not Breton like his, but probably Briton.

Lawrence looked at Elerde. Some color was returning to his face. There was a long scar that reached from just under the inside corner of one eye across his cheek almost to his jaw. His hair, now dry, proved to be streaked with gray. His beard was more gray than black. “Elerde, you look like an old man.”

The man looked up at him. “Have you seen your own reflection lately?” the mocking voice managed. One supercilious eyebrow went up, an expression Lawrence remembered from.. what?.. almost twenty years back?

Tancogeistla looked from one man to the other. There was definitely some history here. She was far too young to know much about the battle between these noblemen for the love of one woman. If she had she would have known that woman was the queen, and that the king had won that battle.

A deep groan issued from the Breton’s mouth. “My leg,” he moaned.

“The feeling is coming back to your limbs. I will have to examine your leg.”: The woman gestured Lawrence to get out of her way. In spite of her huge belly she managed to walk on her knees down to where the man’s legs were, lifted the many coverings off him, and Lawrence saw that somehow Tancogeistla had also gotten Elerde’s leggings and boots off. He was naked under the blankets. He looked at her and asked again, “What can I do to help?”

“It will depend on whether the leg is broken, and how cleanly. For now just bring me a cup of the hot water.” She scanned hanging plants on one wall. “Also that bit of white willow. Take your knife and scrape off some of the bark into the hot water.”

The king heard Elerde’s moans of increasing distress and knew Tancogeistla was squeezing his shin to find the break. He was glad to have a task that focused his eyes as he did not want to watch what she was doing.

He brought the cup with its brewing herbs back to the palette and set it on the floor. He gave the woman a questioning look.

“It’s a clean break, just the one, but it’s slightly out of alignment. I am going to have to ask you to help me set it, or it will heal wrong. Let him drink some of that first.”

“I have something better,” Lawrence said. He reached for his saddle bag and unlaced the closing. Reaching in he pulled out a stoppered wineskin. The look of gratitude in the woman’s eyes was trebled in Elerde’s. The king unstoppered the skin and helped the man suck down the deep red wine.

When Elerde had drunk the entire contents of the skin, Lawrence positioned himself at his feet. At Tancogeistla’s command, he put his hands around the man’s left ankle and at her signal, gave a sharp tug. Elerde in spite of himself gave a sharp cry. Lawrence could feel the scrape of the break transmitted through where his hands touched the man’s ankle bone. He looked up to see the Breton had partially swooned. The woman was smiling contentedly.

“Perfect. It will heal straight now, God willing,” she said. “Cover him back up. We will worry about a splint later. He’s not going anywhere any time soon.

The king and Tancogeistla sat on stools on the other side of the fire pit, bowls of ale warmed by a hot poker in their hands and talked. He heard of her husband’s death in his service, and his head bowed, he silently was glad that soon commanding the fyrd would fall to King Offa. He would have his own oath-men and men at arms, but somehow being only their lord felt less burdensome than being their king.

He hesitantly asked her how long it would be until she was delivered of her child. Her careworn face did not hide fear. “By the new year.”

He frowned, “Do you have anyone to help you?”

She looked up at the walls as if she could see through them to the snow that continued to pile up outside. “I do, but I don’t think she will be able to get through all that to help me deliver.” She sighed. “It’s in God’s hands.”

He gazed thoughtfully. “My people will be looking for me. If they don’t come in time, I will venture out to get your woman to help you.”

She gave him a wry look. “If they don’t come, methinks you will be the one to help me.” She chuckled as his face blanched.

Images flew through his mind, his wife’s mostly easy deliveries, but also the terrible death of his dearest friend Ansovald’s wife. She was too small for Ansovald’s child. The delivery had cost her her life and Ansovald the love of his own. The child was the boy Tavish, the quiet, earnest child he and Josephine had raised as their own after his father was murdered.

Then he thought of his daughter Caithness, the girl who looked most like her golden haired mother, and who lost baby after baby as the wife of the king of East Anglia. At least Elaine, who would be an abbess soon, would be spared that pain and grief. He knew better than to bring up Caithness. This woman had a fearsome enough fate to contemplate. And thereafter she would raise the child alone.

“My wife had three children, our son Peter and the twins. As tiny as she is, she had quick labor and the babies were bonny and healthy.”

Tancogeistla grinned at him. “Are you saying you had something to do with that?”

He looked at her surprised, but he saw the twinkle in her eye. “No, I was utterly without credit for anything but the getting.”

“The queen is a strong woman then?” she asked.

From the palette came, “Oh, yes. Very strong.”

Lawrence shot a displeased look at the man. His face softened. Wickedly he asked, “After all, she resisted your charms, did she not?”

The hooded eyes glared back. “Well, she had her children. They were the priority.”

Two sets of eyes, one blue and the other almost black, glared at each other.


The snow did not abate. Lawrence had to go out and climb up a ladder onto the thatch several times to clear the smoke hole. He grew restless, worrying about what the queen would think if he were not home for Christmas. The snow seemed never-ending and threatened to trap them all inside. It fell to him to use what tools he had at hand to keep the dooryard clear or the snow should have come to the top of the doorway. He knew Peter and the others were out there somewhere looking for him.

He remembered the time so long ago when everyone thought he was dead when in fact he had gone from being the prisoner of a small band of outlaws to the prisoner of his own liege-man, Earl Harold of Grantham. How surprised he had been when the outlaws were the ones that rescued him from his more highborn gaoler. He took heart remembering that Josephine alone had never accepted the news that he was dead. Glancing at the sleeping Elerde, he recalled that she had stayed steadfast even when spirited away by the Breton.

As the days dragged, the two men sat together in conversation. Elerde told the king how he had left the queen at Lindisfarne and gone to find a battle so fierce he would surely die.

“I see you almost succeeded,” Lawrence said, indicating the livid scar on his face.

“Yes, then and other times. Always something saved me. I could not catch a break.” He glared at the king. “I almost succeeded a few days ago, but you, damn you to Hell, saved me. How is that for irony?”

A stern word came from Tancogeistla. “Are you damning me to hell as well?”

Lawrence was surprised at the regret that Elerde showed in his face as he stammered an apology.

For the next few days he noticed that the woman sat by the injured man as much or more than he did. He came back from gathering what little wood he could to find them talking in low tones. It was he that insisted Elerde share the bed with her. In her condition she should not be lying on the floor wrapped in blankets as he was. Tancogeistla resisted, but finally one evening she relented and curled up, her back to Elerde, on the straw palette.

Lawrence awoke to relieve himself early one morning to see that the Breton was able to lie on his side now and had one arm over the woman.

A few more days went by. The snowfall slowed and ceased. It was still cold enough that the deep snow on the ground remained, at least four feet deep and more where it had drifted. Lawrence was able to go further to find wood, which he did not only to keep them all warm in the cottage but to make smoke that might lead rescuers.

Watching Elerde and Tancogeistla together, Lawrence became thoughtful, reflective. He had hated the man since he first learned of his attentions to Josephine. He even tried to kill him once in cold blood. He had realized some time ago that a large part of his resentment and antagonism stemmed from his own insecurity. He had genuinely feared the darkly sensual Celt would be too much of a temptation to his queen. He knew that he had been wrong to doubt her. If anything, Josephine knew her mind and never wavered from what she knew to be true. One of those truths was her utter devotion to the king and their family.

Looking at Elerde as the man’s eyes followed the pregnant woman’s form as she moved about the cottage Lawrence suddenly had a sharp painful realization of how empty Elerde’s life must have been. He ventured conversationally, “So, do you have a wife somewhere?”

Elerde’s dark eyes bored into him. “What do you think? Could you marry again once you had her?”

Of course the blasted man meant Josephine. “No, of course not.” He dropped the subject.

It was Christmas Eve when Elerde, now able to sit up, tentatively asked, “So, how is she?”

Lawrence looked up at him startled. “Josephine? She’s well. You know she is always well.”

“Is she.. still beautiful?”

Lawrence’s mouth fell open, but as he considered the Breton’s averted eyes, he softened. “She’s older. But yes, she is still beautiful.”

“No gray in that golden hair?” Elerde smiled, glancing at the king.

Lawrence just smiled, declining to answer.

“And as stubborn as ever?” Elerde was smiling wryly now.

Lawrence laughed. “Oh yes. More.”

“That’s not possible,” Elerde chuckled.

Their conversation came to an abrupt halt when Tancogeistla suddenly cried out. The two men chorused “What is it?!”

“The child,” she groaned. I think it’s coming.”

Lawrence spun to order Elerde off the palette, but he did not need to. Moving gingerly the Breton was crawling, wincing, off to make the poor bed available for the woman’s lying in. Lawrence sprung to his feet and went to Tancogeistla, put his arm around her shoulders and guided her slowly to the bed. “Lie down here,” he said.

As she settled down and he folded the cloak better to use as a pillow, she said in a strained voice, “Well, your grace, it looks like you will have to play midwife after all.”

The Breton accented voice inserted, “Oh no he won’t. You’ve never helped at a lying in, have you, Saxon? Well, I have. More than once. I’ll need your help but I will be the midwife.”

Tancogeistla’s eyes went to Elerde’s. “Oh my dear, can you? Will you?”

In a soft voice, he replied, “Yes, my love.”

Lawrence was too panicked about the birth to register what had just passed between the two.

He was about to ask for what felt like a dozenth time, “What can I do?” when he heard shouts from outside. “My god, it’s Peter.”

Elerde looked up. “Peter? Your son, Peter?” He was smiling with fond memories.

“Yes,” the king called over his shoulder as he threw open the door.

“Shut that door, you great lout!” the Breton snapped. “You want her to die of the cold and the baby with her?”

Outside Lawrence shouted to the small group of riders threading their way through melting drifts of snow. “Here! I am here! Hurry!”

Peter, Críslicland’s ætheling, at least until King Offa took over, was the first to dismount and run up to his father. The men embraced. “Father, I wondered if we would ever find you. We lost you in the blizzard!”

Lawrence laughed, “I know. I was there!” He noticed one of the men helping a woman from where she had sat behind him on his horse. “Who is that?”

Peter glanced back. “Oh that’s a midwife. We came across her hut early this morning. She wouldn’t let us go on looking for you until we brought her here. She said the woman inside was about to give birth.”

The woman bustled past the king and through the rough plank door, which she shut firmly behind her. Lawrence and Peter heard her sharp commands and then a woman’s protest. “He can’t. He has a broken leg.”

Peter looked back inquiringly at his father. “It’s a long story,” his father replied.

Lawrence would not leave with his son and their men until he was assured Tancogeistla and her child were well. As a result they had to build a fire and huddle around it waiting, listening to the woman’s cries of pain, a man’s voice comforting, and the midwife’s coaching. At long last they heard a hearty wail.

Peter looked at his father’s beaming face. “It sounds like they are well. Can we go now?”

“Be patient,” was all the king would say.


It was near dawn when the midwife came outside to fetch snow to melt. “Oh my lord, you are all still here?” she said incredulously.

Lawrence stood and went to her, taking the bucket from her hands. “How is the child? How is its mother?”

She looked from his face to the other men, then back to him. “Well, quite well. It’s a lad. She is sitting up in bed and nursing the little one now.”

“May I go in to offer my thanks and farewells?” the king asked.

“If you fetch me some snow in that bucket, you may. But then you should go. Tancogeistla needs her rest.”

Lawrence excitedly gathered snow in the bucket and hurried back to the cottage. Peter’s bemused glance followed his form through the door. He heard the midwife answer a question from the king, “She has named the child for its father.”

Inside the cozy room Lawrence stopped to let his snow-blind eyes adjust. Gradually he made out the two figures, three in fact, on the palette. The mother sat up against the man’s chest. He had his arms around her and the child who was at her breast. Elerde looked up and smiled.

Lawrence stood looking at the trio with a broad smile. “I have to go. It’s Christmas Day and we can just make Lawrencium before dark. I wanted to thank you. And to congratulate you.” He hesitated, “May I see him?”

Tancogeistla glanced up at Elerde’s face. The Breton nodded his head.

Lawrence knelt at the bedside as Elerde’s fingers pulled the blanket away from the little one’s face. It was red, wrinkled, and bleary eyed. “Merry Christmas, little Elerde,” the king murmured.

He looked up into his old nemesis’ face. “God be with you. I am happy now that you have what you always wanted.”

Tancogeistla looked puzzled.

Elerde answered her unspoken question. “What he has had all along. The love of a good woman.”

“I will leave a man to help you until you are both back on your feet.”

Elerde nodded his thanks.

The two men clasped hands over the mother and child. Then Lawrence stood and left Elerde of Leon alone with his new family.

Outside, Lawrence took in a deep lungful of the earthy smell of the damp leaves and grass under the melting snow.

“Who were they?” Peter asked him as they rode away.

Lawrence smiled. “No one special. But they did give me shelter, so I left them well stocked for wood and left a man to help. The father’s leg is broken.”

He made the sign of the cross and looked affectionately over at his son. “Merry Christmas, Peter.”

His son smiled. “And to you, Father.”

May you know the happiness you deserve in this world. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Nan

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Two Flash Christmas Stories and an Old, Old Longer One by Nan Hawthorne

Silent Night

This and the following story are from a writing group called "Gay Flash Fiction" with weekly prompts that challenge the writer to tell a whole story in under 1000 workds.  Find it at http://gayflashfiction.wordpress.com .

     Andrew stood in the lonely garden planted with piles of snow. The white flakes were
still falling, making the evergreen branches into aerial piles of it. For one minute when one limb relieved itself of its burden, Andrew himself was an impromptu pile of snow.
     It suited him, this feeling of being in a featureless land of white things, even the air so full of big flakes that it seemed white and without dimension.
     Likewise it was quiet. He could hear his boots crunching as he walked, but the
sound was muffled, distant, white noise came from all around. His breath came
out white, adding to the monochromatic wasteland. That is how he felt.
Colorless, featureless, and alone.
     He slowed his pace until the snow falling on the ground behind him filled in all
trace of his passing. He came to the bench where Daniell and he used to sit and
talk about their future. He knew if he looked around and up he would see the
window of what had been their apartment living room. There would be no
Christmas lights, no warm and golden lamplights, and no beloved silhouette
watching to see him in the garden. He did not turn to look.
     Daniel was gone. The apparently inevitable propulsion into Years Together
abruptly stopped. Like the things under the relentless snowfall, they had
ceased to be part of the landscape. Some stupid words, an indiscretion, a fir
of temper. Now it was all done and finished.
     Andrew knew it was too late to save what he had had with Daniel. The proverbial
ax fell and that was all she wrote. He sighed deeply, exhaling m ore white into
the solid block of whiteness. He could not bear to turn to go up to the empty
apartment. He knew he would have t eventually. He supposed he could go out
tonight, drown his sorrows, maybe get some pity sex. Maybe that was what he
should do. At least make feeling sorry for himself pay off.
     Stretching his arms to hear his joints crack, he slowly turned to make his way
to the gate that led out to the street. When he got to the sidewalk he would
choose, left to go home, right to go to the bar. He pulled up the collar of his
coat against the cold.
     "Andrew"" came the voice out of the white.
     "Daniel! What are you doing here?"
     "I came to find you. Let's go upstairs, OK? And start again?"
     Andrew walked into Daniel's long arms and they kissed.

Christmas Shopping

     I took my place in line at World Market while my husband went to the
other line. The woman standing before me turned to glance when she heard
me tell him, “This way whichever line is faster, we are in it.” Her look
was amused, quizzical. I explained, and she turned a hopeful look on me.
“But I have no one to do that with!”
     I grinned and replied, touching her sleeve, “You can be mine.”
     Her eyes widened and she asked, “Really?”
     In that moment I think I fell a little in love with her. That pleasant
hopeful question came from a woman in middle age, with long waving hair
frosted with the white of time. No makeup, practical clothes, and a
sweetness that grabbed a long unexercised part of me.
     I wanted to look into those mascara-less eyes with my own and say, “Oh,
yes. Really.”

Christmas 768 AD

If Richard Sharpe can have a Christmas story, then I guess so can the crew in Lawrencium. I knew nothing about Anglo Saxon holilday traditions when i wrote this. In fact, I didn't know much if anything about Anglo Saxons back when i wrote this in 1968. But the spirit of giving is forever, right?

December 768

     Heather looked sadly at Shannon, who slept peacefully, his head cradled in her arms. "Oh how can ye Shannon, my love?" she thought, and nearly wept to think how, even on Christmas morning, the thoughts tormented her. All she could think of were scene's of Shannon's eyes going to the Queen, love songs to Jo, the melancholy he fell into so often. She loved her husband very much, but was not able to understand his love for the Queen. She tried to force back a sob, but the slight heaving of her chest woke Shannon. His sleepy eyes looked into hers anxiously.
     "What's wrong, dearest?"
     "Oh, nothing. I only coughed;" she did no disguise the thickness of her voice. She turned away from him. "Rub my back, love."
     "Of course, me darlin'" Shannon's eyes grew ominous, and there was no doubt in his mind about the cause of her sorrow.
     At lunch, he caught himself gazing at the Queen. He noticed Lawrence no longer glared at those who gazed at his wife. But he guessed Lawrence felt it, like an acid on his heart.
     Later he was granted an audience with the King. Jo, of course, was there, almost incredibly large with child. This of course, was awkward and uncomfortable for her, but she was proud that she bore Lawrence's child, and was happy it would be big and healthy. When he saw her, Shannon remarked, "Sure, and that one's a boy!"
     Lawrence's eyes twinkled and he threw an arm about Jo, who was delighted. But when Shannon's face grew sad, they simultaneously lost their smiles. "What on earth bothers you, man?" Lawrence asked. Shannon went up to them, and taking Jo's hand, he said, "'I've come to very painful decision. I'm sorry to be telling ye like this, on Christmas, but it is too urgent."
     They listened sadly to his plan.
     In the great hall, that evening, servants rushed about a great tree, set in a corner. It was several feet tall, and very beautiful. They carried puddings, and pastries, capons and beef, jugs of ale and bottles of warm, spiced wine. There was to be no meal tonight, just snacks. All the children of the castle stood around the tree, trying to reach sweets and cookies hung on it, suffering an occasional minor burn or needle prick. Catie and Elaine held hands and gazed up at the star on the tree; Peter jabbered merrily with Seamus; Shannon's nephew Jamie watched Tavish curiously. The royal bastard lay in a cradle by the tree, his big brown eyes wide with excitement, gurgling and laughing, and waving his arms. Servants kept having to push children away from the tree. No gifts were under this tree- all were under private trees.
     Soon all the guests had seated themselves in the hall. It was the usual large company of the Yule season. There were princes, nobles, churchmen and gentry, all eating as if they never had before. Lawrence ate little, and kept thing thinking of past Christmases, "How different it is now," the thought. "So wonderful to have my Jo with me." Purposely, he broke off the feasting to make an announcement a while later. "Please, those of you I name, grant me your company in my chambers, half an hour from now - let's see - Shannon, Heather, Sean, Emily, Lorin, Larisa, Finnegan, Percy, Jocelyn, and Sir Michael, Samir and Rebecca. Bring your gifts and, of course, your children!" All stood as he took the Queen's hand and they left.
     The assembly of fourteen people in Lawrence's spacious apartment was quite gay. A tree was set in a corner, and gifts were set all around it. All ten children, no matter how young, seemed filled with joy. The elders sat on chairs, the babies held by their parents, the tots seated on the floor. The talk was warm and happy. Lawrence requested each of his friends request a boon of him as a gift. Jo asked first. "May we go away somewhere after the child is born?" Then Lorin requested some of Christenlande's newly acquired land for his baby son, John. Sean said he would wait, as did Shannon. Finnegan asked permission to have his wife sent here; Samir requested knighthood, and Rebecca asked for a small room for her own worship, and for those of her tribe in Lawrencium. To the surprise of all, Percy asked for the king's permission to marry Jocelyn! Michael asked for a sword. All requests, of course, were granted, and then gifts were exchanged.
     After much oohing and ahhing, and the glee of the tots, all sat around and talked. Lawrence held Tavish in his arms and talked baby talk to him. Suddenly, Tavish looked up at his father said quite clearly, "Da!" Lawrence was overjoyed! "My God, where did you hear that?! He knows me! What a bright little child! Oh, Da's little angel!" Everyone laughed to see their royal sovereign thus.
     Quite late, all wandered off to bed. Shannon and Heather walked silently to tie room. Once there, Shannon abruptly took his wife in his arms and kissed her passionately. "Heather," he said. I've but one more gift to give you this evening. We leave the first of January for Ireland…
From An Involuntary King: The Stories.  I was 16 when I wrote it.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

An Anglo Saxon Twelve Days of Christmas

On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me
An aetheling with his eye on Dad.

On the second day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Two Viking raids!

On the third day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Three fyrdmen!

On the fourth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Four earldoms!

On the fifth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Five Mercian thegns!

On the sixth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Six querns a-grinding!

On the seven day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Seven Saxon kingdoms!

On the eighth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Eight witans meeting!

On the nine day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Nine burhs in a day's ride!

On the tenth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Ten cyning rivals!

On the eleventh day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Eleven king's companions!

On the twelfth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Twelve shields o'er lapping!
Eleven king's companions!
Ten cyning rivals!
Nine burhs in a day's ride!
Eight witans meething!
Seven Saxon kingdoms!
Six querns a-grinding!
Five Mercian thegns!
Four earldoms!
Three fyrdmen!
Two Viking raids!
And an aetheling with his eye on Dad.

Friday, December 9, 2011

When Christmas Was Banned in England

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Do you know there was a time in England when Christmas was banned. Hard though it is to imagine, during the time of Oliver Cromwell, that is what happened. On the next Classroom Of The Air, Nan Hawthorne, author of several historical novels, will tell us why this decision was made. If you find yourself thinking you couldn't imagine a year without Christmas, the British couldn't either. Did they find ways to celebrate secretly? Why was Oliver Cromwell so opposed to its celebration? Did he live as he expected everyone else to, or was he a contradiction and a law unto himself? What
punishments were meted out to those who violated Cromwell's order? How did parents explain this sad turn of events to children looking forward to decorations and gifts? For how long did this go on and how was this much loved holiday reinstituted?

If we could not celebrate this joyous day, it would be heartbreaking indeed.
With its return, it would gain in meaning and stature as things removed and given back always do.

As you think of the meaning of Christmas, join us for a journey to a time when for a nation, there was no Christmas and a high price paid for disobeying Oliver Cromwell's order

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Saturday, December 25, 2010

What I Wanted for Christmas


About two years ago I posted what I wanted for Christmas.  I just ran across the article and was interested to see what I got, and what I didn't!

What I Want for Christmas

22 December 2008
For a holiday gift I would like:

A chance to do my Celtic music show on Internet radio again.
That very Christmas my husband got me a radio station, so now I have 24/7 Celtic music on Radio Dé Danann!

A cottage in the Wicklow Mountains and the funds to get there and back.
That is still on the list in 2010.

An ashwood shield of Anglo Saxon design.
A girl can dream, can't she?

Unlimited ideas on what to write about in my blog.
Well,  I get close.

The snow on the ground in the Seattle area to melt.
It did, and has done so several times...

Nicholas de Fleury to stop being so depressing.
You see, I hadn't yet met Francis Crawford...

For my novel An Involuntary King to be made into a movie.
Better hurry up.. my chosen cast is aging rapidly!
Well, I am getting well into the range of impossibility, so I should stop there I think.

Not bad, though, eh?

Hope your holiday season is warm and full of love!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

The Wexford Carol - Irish Christmas Song



A Very Warm and Loving Holiday to You All from Us at Booking History and Radio De Danaan Music of the Pan Celtic World www.radiodedanann.com !

Monday, December 20, 2010

Ring Out Those Solstice Bells


In honor of Nan and Jim's 29th anniversary.

A Very Warm and Loving Holiday to You All from Us at Booking History and Radio De Danaan Music of the Pan Celtic World www.radiodedanann.com !

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Bring Us In Good Ale

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Bring Us In Good Ale

Chorus:
Bring us in good ale, good ale, and bring us in good ale,
For our blessed Lady's sake, bring us in good ale.

Bring us in no brown bread, for that is made of bran,
Nor bring us in no white bread, for therein is no grain,
But bring, etc.

Bring us in no beef, for there is many bones,
But bring us in good ale, for that go'th down at once.
And bring, etc.

Bring us in no bacon, for that is passing fat,
But bring us in good ale, and give us enough of that.
And bring, etc.

Bring us in no mutton, for that is passing lean,
Nor bring us in no tripes, for they be seldom clean.
But bring, etc.

Bring us in no eggs, for there are many shells,
But bring us in good ale, and give us nothing else.
But bring, etc.

Bring us in no butter, for therein are many hairs,
Nor bring us in no pig's flesh for that will make us bears.
But bring, etc.

Bring us in no puddings, for therein is all God's good,
Nor bring us in no venison, that is not for our blood.
But bring, etc.

Bring us in no capon's flesh, for that is often dear,
Nor bring us in no duck's flesh, for they slobber in the mere (mire)
But bring, etc.

From Chapell, Popular Music of the Olden Time
Song from about 1460.

The Wilsons at Walthamstowe

You can hear great old songs like this on Radio Dé Danann!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

An Involuntary Christmas, or How Lawrence and Elerde Found the True Meaning of Christmas



Read a story written just for those of you who have read my novel, An Involuntary King, at

An Involuntary KIng: The Stories - An Involuntary Christmas

And a Happy Holidays to you all!  May you be showered with great novels throughout 2010!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

What Book Would You Like to Find Under Your Tree?


What book would you love to find under your tree this Winter Holiday?

Click on Comments below and dream your dreams aloud.


Image "borrowed" from clinicians with not enough to do.

Monday, November 30, 2009

End of November: Is it Soup Yet?

We Are the Champions, My Friends!

Check it out, one of the two heroes of the end-of-the-world movie 2012 is a novelist.. and an underrepresented one at that. Yay us!

National Novel Writing Month 2009

NaNoWriMo is all but over in the Pacific Time Zone. I finished! I reach my 50,000 somewhere around November 20th, then switched my goal to finishing the first draft of my novel. I did that today, with a total count of 78,307 words! The novel itself, the story of a woman who goes to the Crusade of 1101 disguised her late twin brother, will no doubt be around 100,000 to 115,000 when the second draft is done. I plan to seek a publisher for the book this time.

The most important part of participating in NaNoWriMo for me this year is that it broke me out of whatever block or slump or miasma or whatever was stopping me from getting writing again. On the theory I once heard that anything you do, or don't do, for 21 days becomes a habit, it worked for me. Llike most if not all of you, writing gets my endorphens spouting.. and I am happily addicted again.

Interesting New Blogs

Fictional Appearance By.. Real people in Historical Fiction will cover a topic I find intriguing, obviously what real people have been fictionalized in historical fiction. There are several articles posted already, about many of the historical figures we all love to follow like paparazzi follow movie stars. Go take a look and see who is there.

Fans of History and Women will be glad to know that while the original blog has been retired, a replacement popped up almost immediately. The New History and Women blog has a selection of the biographies drawn from the old blog and will continue in the same tradition, with authors Maggie Anton, Greta Marlow, Anne Gilbert, Brandy Purdy, and me as the remaining editors. Gemini Sasson has stepped away to finish two manuscripts, and Mirella Patzer, the woman responsible for the history and Women blog and all its awards, is focusing on other projects of her own, including her own fourth novel.

Speaking of Brandy

If you are looking for Brandy Purdy's upcoming release of The Boleyn Wife in the UK, look instead for The Tudor Wife by Emily Purdy. It's the same book, same author, just amde up to sound more British, I guess. Youo can find out more and read the great reviews at www.brandypurdy.com .

Holiday Music, Celtic Style

'Tis the winter holiday season, so it is, and i am after invitin' ye all to partake of a Celtic celebration on Radio Dé Danaan. I am looking for, and finding, winter holiday music from not only Ireland, Scotland and Wales, but also Cornwall, the Isle of Man, the Orkneys and the Hebrides, Brittany, Astirias and Dalicia, and Cape Breton in Canada. This will largely be Christmas music, but believe it or not I have found CVeltic music for Hanukkah as well, and needless to say some Yule music for our Pagan fans, and that most famous Scottish song of all, Auld Lang Syne. So tune in soon for an increasing saturation of holiday music on Radio Dé Dnaan, Music of the Pan-Celtic World.

Now.. to get back to all my back emails....

Friday, January 2, 2009

Creatrix Day in Críslicland

Blog taking the weekend off for Críslicland national holiday, Creatrix Day, honoring our author's birthday on January 3 by order of King Lawrence! Will resume on Monday, January 5.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

What They Would Have Asked Santa For

Susan Higginbotham and I have been thinking about various historical and historical fiction characters and what they might have asked for while sitting on Santa's lap. Here is what we came up with -- see if you can guess which entries are whose.

Edward I -- Scotland.

Ethelred the Unready -- A day planner

Piers Gaveston -- Just something handmade. No, really! Well . . . if you insist, jewels are always appropriate.

Isabella of France -- My jewels back.

Alfred the Great - An oven timer

Hugh le Despenser the younger -- Whatever someone else is getting.

Roger Mortimer -- Hugh on a platter.

Aethelflaed, Lady of the Mercians -- For Bernard Cornwell to get me right in his novels

Edward II -- Fodor's Guide to Italy.

Harold Godwinson - Edward the Confessor's will in writing.. or not

Godiva of Coventry - Super hold hair spray

Edward III -- France.

Offa of Mercia - A really butch Welsh dyke

Branwen Jones - For the King of Mercia to leave me the heck alone.

Edward IV -- Getting to Yes.

Ivar the Boneless - You have to ask?!

Elizabeth Woodville -- An agreeable second husband who will be nice to my large family.

Aethelwald, son of Ethelred - Primo genitor

Richard the Lion-hearted -- To go on a nice long cruise.

Richard, Duke of Gloucester Something round and gold and shiny that fits nicely on my head. (Later, when king -- a horse.)

Henry Tudor -- Something round and gold and shiny that fits nicely on my head.

William Rufus -- A new archery set.

Henry VIII -- 6 free sessions of marriage counseling.

Nicholas de Fleury -- I'm not sure. I keep penduluming back and forth about that.

Anne Boleyn -- Morning sickness.

Katherine Howard -- Someone my own age to pal around with.

Katherine Parr -- Widow's weeds.

Lawrence of Críslicland - For a certain Breton mercenary to take a long walk off a short pier

Boswell the cairn terrier -- Mom to get off her duff and take me for a walk.

Macdhui the Duck, a cat -- For a credible explanation why we have not gone in the car for such a looong time.

Glad Yule and a happy and loving 2009!

Image: Harold Godwinson in the Bayeux Tapestry.